So, as most of you probably don't know, I have not been excited for this trip, and am still really not. Most of what I have been feeling is nervousness. Nervousness for a lot of things, but I have compiled a list this evening, regarding not only what I have been nervous about, but also, surprisingly what I am looking forward to about this trip. I would like to share it with you all, as I believe that it is a key point in my emotional journey leading up to this trip.

Here is my list:

Expectations for India Trip

March 2013

What am I scared of?

-      Witnessing poverty, and unconsciously making up unrealistic situations that could’ve involved me in this sense, if I had stayed in India.

-      Emotional Overload/ Overwhelming Emotions (see previous blog posts)

-      Being separated from Dad/Getting lost

-      Getting sick

What am I looking forward to?

-      Sharing my life experience here in the US with the kids in the orphanage

-      The food!

-      Possible festivals? Indian Dance?

-      Seeing shrines

-      THE TAJ MAHAL!

What do I think is going to happen?

To me?

-      Fear

-      Overwhelming, complicated emotions – emotions that I won’t be able to process right away

In India?

-      People begging me for money constantly (because I’m rich and an American).