I decided rather than forcing myself to feel better about the trip and going to India, I would embrace it. Let the feelings come or go, feel what I want to feel, instead of just purposefully "sticking" to one emotion.

I've started (better sooner than later) embracing the effect of change. So, tonight, I took a leap of faith, and rearranged all the furniture in my room! And now I'm going embrace the uncomfortable, comfortable, and somewhat nerve-racking effect of change. Because there is going to be a lot of it in India, it's going to be one big culture shock! So I might as well get used to the "culture shock" within my own room, and minimally, but strategically prepare myself (as much as I can) for what I may feel when I get to India.